lonelywhispers

In the silent space of my heart
I hold you
know you are going

forevermore apart

I keep you
in a silent space in my heart

You are dying
I am not crying

But inside a silence
I hold you
know you are dying
I keep you
while you are going
I hold you
I hope you know it

silent grieving, silent loving

I can't keep you
you are going

In the sacred space of my heart
I hold you
wish you peaceful passage
you are ravaged
you are dying
I'm not crying

In a sacred space in my heart
I will hold you
keep you
and wish you peaceful passage

You are in a still room
dying
I am at home
my heart open
listening
I am gripped
by the feeling
of your presence
Are you visiting?

I listen
with my heart
Is this your final visit -
a final step
in your passage
before you go
while staying
in the silent space
of my heart

The phone rings

I am told
of your passage

No more breathing
Time for grieving
while I hold you
in my heart

In the silent space of my heart
I hold you
In a silent space in my heart
I keep you
In the sacred space of my heart
I hold you
In a sacred space in my heart
I will hold you

forevermore

It stalks the night
It stalks the day
It seeks out life
And whisks it away
It's known as death
And other things too
But it's all the same
What matters is you.
How do you see it?
What does it mean?
It's best if you know
For death is unseen.
It can take you at day
It can take you at night
Knowing death well
Can lend you some light
The passage to death
Is always unclear
And it's best to know
That you're very near.
For death is at hand
It is for us all
Know it's face well
So you don't stumble and fall
Now think hard on death
And know that it's near
And the meaning of life
Will be all to clear
And that is to live
For your hearts desire
Not to stumble or fall
But to burn with a fire.
A fire for life
To live for each day
To reach for your dreams
No matter what people say
Life is a question
And death holds a clue
Reach not for the answer
For your life's not due
Live for the moment
And die for it too
For it's the moment that counts
It, and you
Now I'm all done
I've said what I'll say
Just remember one thing
Live for the day!

What am I suppose to do with my life?
What's my purpose?
I can just feel the cold metal on a knife close to my throat,
resting on my skin and waiting for blood.
I think i should give up..
Or should I continue breathing for my life to turn page to normality?
It's too hard for me to understand what I should do!
I can't just sit here and feel bad about myself all the fucking time!
I had alot off goof times with you all.
But some shit always happens.
I hope my new home will find out that I ain't that person that sits and cut himself up!
I'm oly the myself,
Only the lonely and dark person who's trying to desperate find new good frinends.
But i know one day I will sit here and try to find....

New ways to take my life.

Always so alone..
Always In the dark,
Always the cold feeling In my mind..
How should i take this shit?
NO ONE will ever find out,
NO ONE will ever know me for real!!
It's too hard to describe how i really feel,
Because no one really cares about me?


Soon maby I'll have to say goodbye.


<3