Deeper feelings that made their way up...
Marked words in empty space…
even though most can't read them,
they're still known and they're there…
I'm stupid, empty and sad… hollow of life and motivation…
Where's my lust to live?
Am I living or am i just alive?
It feels hard… harsh and rugged…
But a rounded deep emptiness anyway. I'm not pretty, or fine…
In any way, are people just saying that to be nice?
To just feel good about themselves because it's what's “right”?
I feel so stupid… so fucking stupid…
I always manage to be the dark one…
The one that your teachers/parents or even friends warns you about…
The “loner", the outcast or even the one in the corner everyone avoids,
even though most can't read them,
they're still known and they're there…
I'm stupid, empty and sad… hollow of life and motivation…
Where's my lust to live?
Am I living or am i just alive?
It feels hard… harsh and rugged…
But a rounded deep emptiness anyway. I'm not pretty, or fine…
In any way, are people just saying that to be nice?
To just feel good about themselves because it's what's “right”?
I feel so stupid… so fucking stupid…
I always manage to be the dark one…
The one that your teachers/parents or even friends warns you about…
The “loner", the outcast or even the one in the corner everyone avoids,
because he/she spreads too much negativity…
Anywhere I go… People may say I'm “nice, funny, happy" or whatever…
But I fall down… all the time… over and over and over…
FUCK… it's so hard…
I don't want to anymore… I don't wanna be that one in the corner nobody sees…
I try so much to be positive or happy or the one people can relate or talk to…
But not even that helps all the times…
I've put up ladders for people, but they must take the steps.
I've built entire concrete groundings for people to stand on, but they just jump off…
Why can't I be trusted? What have I ever done to feel this sad… ?
What have I ever done to become such a shithole of a human...
Anywhere I go… People may say I'm “nice, funny, happy" or whatever…
But I fall down… all the time… over and over and over…
FUCK… it's so hard…
I don't want to anymore… I don't wanna be that one in the corner nobody sees…
I try so much to be positive or happy or the one people can relate or talk to…
But not even that helps all the times…
I've put up ladders for people, but they must take the steps.
I've built entire concrete groundings for people to stand on, but they just jump off…
Why can't I be trusted? What have I ever done to feel this sad… ?
What have I ever done to become such a shithole of a human...
