Love...
Soon, 2 days... I will feel how it feels, feel how it will fly out inside me.
I were hoping u could see me fly in my mind, soul and body!
You couldn't see it or feel it, feel how proud u were or how sad it would be when I'm not ur child anymore.. I'm turning 18, without u.
It was my last wish that you would witness my day of turning 18.
But that wish flew with u... It's not a problem! U see me from wherever you are..
I don't care if my spelling is bad or I'm writing like an ass.. As long as i feel it's good for me.
And I can see you, in my mind mom... I miss you, I can't realize ur gone, I don't want to!
I wanna sit in the car, feel the happiness with u and the music bounded between our souls.
Two souls entwined with eachother and bound by love and happiness but shattered to pieces by death, it hurts... That the only thing that could rip it apart happend.. It hurts so bad in my chest and soul..
I hate that u left us, but I will ensure you that I will NEVER hate YOU!
Even though I miss you so much I'm ready to rip, twist and tear out my own heart I wont do it.
I'm now a grown up, in 2 days I will be the man i wanted you to see... A man worthy of my name and love to my mother.
I miss you so much... No one can see the sorrow I've buried within me so deep... And I wont ever show it to anyone, I don't want anyone see it, or even feel it.
I don't ever want anyone to feel it... ever...
Bye for this time.. <3
// Hugs, Isak
