-Trust, currage and randomness-
my life's random, it's happening random stuff all the time, and that's just retarded...
how many really cares about my feelings exept my gf?
my mom ? my dad? my sisters and my brother? not my brother he's just 4 y old..
But I'm falling deeper and deeper in to this sands where the darkness embraces you,
and it's to ruff to get up...
I need that hand that is brave and strong enought to bring me back to the surface.
I may have some contacts left my is there ANYONE that actually will help me to the end?
I don't really think somone have the heart to see my pain.
As I've said before, you got to feel the pain before you can understand another.
I'm glad at least some people look at this, sometimes I'm depressed and sometimes I'm glad.
I hope you have the trust in me<3
So lonely, so painfull
so free, so dark
So cold but so joyfull!
Creeping cold and creeping pains
Feel my heart and feel my pulsing vains
Crap, shit poop and piss
There is something you will miss,
Mabye a thing or two or mabye som shit you NEED to do...
Bajskorv, orkar fan inte skriva mer, finns mycket att skriva men orkar fan inte.
något känns bara fel.
Fucked up reallity!
It's calling my name, it's calling me to fame..
But I don't want it, I don't need it.
I don't see it, I just feel the same...
What should you do?
what should I do?
Have a new feeling, you can have it all by yourself.
Sometimes I feel like this, accept it or deny it.
BAD
Crazy pits of loneliness is embracing me, I want it to stop, I want it to end.
I can't continue with hate and pretend to have a friend, feels like people just faking a friendship with me.
Are you?
No one can ever know my feelings that creeps in my neck, pain, mistress and hate is just a little pieces of the shit I feel.
THAT'S FUCKING BAD!
I was hoping for a new start and I was hoping to just looking forward in the future,
but I'm still stuck in this fucking hole of memories!!!
The memories changes as I got to go...
Something's coming through
What's the problem with me?
Or is the problem really to see?
Or maybe it's come to my duty to pay a fee...
Loneliness, darkness and fake support
I need a teleport...
I see the light in a distance and I see a hate in my deepest soul.
Though I feel something coming and eating me from the inside...
It feels like an shark chewin' on my hart and spits my feelings into a bowl..
It almost feels like when my father tried to take me to the dark side.
He's just full of shit...
And so am I... Bye
Well memories come and go...
Though my past friends are lyin'
Crap has happen, and shit has gone through
My life's been shit and that was ment on YOU... my Dad.
Sometimes u feel bad like i do, and sometimes you feels like and pile of shit.
Right now i feel both, my memories is slowly coming back to me after all that's happen.
I have the help i need, but it's still rough to get it all out of my mind.
But guess what?
I don't like it at all.. well gotta go. bye
